My soap box

Sometimes I forget who I am, sometimes I worry more about what others think of me then I worry about doing what I know is right. Sometimes I let others push me around because I am not confident enough to stand up for my self. Sometimes I worry I lose my own sense of style because I am more worried about fitting in.  It's when I let these "sometimes" happen that my day doesn't turn out the way I want, and I end up with doubts and regret . 

Sometimes I remember fully who I am and what I need and want from life. Sometimes I focus less on myself and more on my family, my friends, neighbors and even my pup.  Sometimes I know I am appreciated because I take time to notice how I help others. Sometimes I feel beautiful because I am proud of who I have became. Sometimes my testimony is strengthen because I allow growth to happen. Sometimes I become a better person because I humble myself enough to be teachable. When I choose to let these "sometimes" happen everything falls into place.

 Tyson is always reminding me to stand up for myself, after telling him how a certain situation or conversation played out. He usually jumps in coaching me on what I could of, should of, said to put the "person.in.there.place" or be an example/leader instead of a bystander. I usually counter attack be a phrase about how "in this particular situation it wouldn't have made a difference"

I am learning  most the time people toggle between similar core beliefs about themselves and therefore react and act in different situations as a result.  I have decided whichever set of "sometimes" I am in.Or whatever set of "sometimes" I think someone else is in. I don't have the option to hide behind the excuse "in this particular situation it wouldn't have made a difference." Because I know it does make a difference to me. I think there is a fine (at times very thin) line between standing up for yourself and putting others down. I guess this is the reason for so long I have allowed myself to be passive. BUT I know there are ways to keep my respect while respecting others.  I want to be the type of person who others gravitate too.  I want to be funny but not at the expense of others, fun because everyone feels welcomed around me, creative and clever because I  have an appetite for life others can taste, kind because you know I truly do see the best you can be when I call you friend. And I can't be this type of person if I am more concerns about being passive and letting things be.   I am grateful for the people I have in my life that show these qualities and set an example for me to follow to be kinder and more caring to others around me. I am grateful for the examples I have of people who stand up for themselves without putting others down.

This is love

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its a simple thing that no body know...

JACK JOHNSON CONCERT

Hayden thought it was the neatest thing ever that she could march around singing and dancing

Only two things fall from the sky

BIRD $H*T AND IDIOTS

Just a shout out to my Mom (and Dallas, for his second time) and Tysen and Michelle for making the jump. My Mom completed our little quartet of jumpers of all four of us now have gone sky diving...first it was me, and then me again, than Nate, then Dallas and then Dallas again and this time he did the unthinkable he convinced my Mom it would be a great birthday present!

 These two (Tysen and Dall have been the best of friends since they were like 7) both jumped right after graduation. AND then did the unthinkable they convinced their mamas to jump! A funny tid-bit is Dallas had just gotten his wisdom teeth out the day before...so he couldn't really open his mouth wide enough to smile :)

Even my Grandma got in on the fun

And the rest of got to be specters and Hayden entertainers

Britteny painted Hayden's nails 

and Daddy keep her content- and obviously I went crazy with the camera

I heart my family!

Sometimes I wonder if I have what it takes to raise a girl